Spirits precious support

What an amazing experience I just had.

Last night our beautiful kitty passed on. It was at home and as peaceful as could be expected considering all the circumstances. We had a veterinarian assist him. He went peacefully with no pain. It is heart wrenching to say the least. He was and is our baby boy.

The week prior to his passing I was being visited by a turkey vulture. I had seen him several times. Then the night of Goliaths passing the vulture was fly circles overhead, over my home. With wings spread. A stunningly beautiful and large bird.

Today, I naturally spent the morning cleaning up around the yard. Planting some plants around where our boy is laid to rest last night.

Early afternoon we had a crow visit in the backyard, on the fencing and down in the yard. Shortly after that I standing in the driveway and this beautiful golden dragonfly shows up and is just flying around dancing on the wind for like 15 minutes! At times coming down to face and waist hight flying around my head, coming within maybe a foot of my face.

Then I saw a beautiful hummingbird in the tree. And a crow shows up again and swoops down close and lands in the tree. Pretty sure he was looking at the dragonfly but didn’t bother it. It was watching me and the dragonfly. Then out of nowhere a large beautiful monarch butterfly just flies in front of my face within 8 inches, just flying by.

All this time I’m still watching this beautiful golden dragon fly that gets close enough for me to see that it has these beautiful orange-ish red eyes and golden wings and a golden brown but more gold body. Then out of nowhere again I look over and see this stunning hawk flying by overhead, over our house with wings spread, pretty low almost at roof hight.

And at one point during all this when it was just the dragonfly, it chirped at me! It was loud too, so unmistakably a chirp. I am certain it came from the dragonfly. Do they even chirp? I had no idea they could do that. I have to look it up.

The whole experience was breath taking and amazing. The breeze was just the perfect amount. The Crow eventually lost interest and left. A while after the dragonfly left. Then I noticed bees on the lavender, baby birds chirping in the tree, and then a couple birds chirping and playing with each other in their.

I am just completely surrounded by Spirit and Guides right now. It was absolutely amazing. I have no doubt that our boy is with us in spirit, he is well and blessed. He is just pure love and light.

So amazing.


Share Your World – May 15, 2017

Share Your World

Better a day late than never…

How many languages do you you speak?

I truly only know one, English.

But I can say Hello, kick, punch, throw, a bunch of other martial arts terms and can count to 30 in Korean. I can count to ten and know a handful of random words in Spanish. And I know a few random words in Japanese from watching subtitled samurai movies for many years.

Hm… Does pig latin count. Pretty sure I can speak that as well. Though it has been a while.

What are you reading, watching, listening to, eating?


For Fun – I often have a very busy, multitasking mind that is hard to quite down sometimes. So I love reading young adult fiction and fantasy. It is such easy reading. I love books by Tamora Pierce and Alison Croggon. They are a quick way to focus my mind on one thing and completely forget about everything that stresses me out. And I love the worlds they create.

I am currently reading books from an author that is new to me, S.D. Crockett. I just finished book 1 “After the Snow” and about to start reading book 2 “One Crow Alone”.

For Education – NASM essentials of personal training, fourth edition text book

For preparation for wanting to write Magic Fantasy books and personal interest – Practical Solitary Magic by Nancy B Watson.

Watching – Just finished the latest season of Sense8 on Netflix. Great season, love this show. Season 2 was much better, easier to follow, than season 1.

Listening – In the mornings and during work (I work from home), Michele McLaughlin and/or Ludovico Einaudi solo piano Radio on Pandora.

When I am driving or on the elliptical at the gym, depending on my mood, The Minimalists podcasts, Roxette Radio or The Offspring Radio on Pandora.

Eating – Way too much these days. Mostly healthy. But I seriously need to stop stress eating and read more instead.

What was the last photo you took with your phone?


What is your favorite time of day?

Nap time! LOL, I wish. But no, I don’t get a nap time. But if I did, that would be my favorite time of day.

Daily Prompt 5/9/17 – Temporary

The Daily Post – Daily Prompt


Most things in life are just that, temporary. The only thing consistent in life is change. Whether it is big or small, blatant or unnoticeable, change is the only constant. Everything else is temporary.

This is one of the main reasons it is so important to develop good self-esteem and to always be supportive of yourself.

Support from others, family, friends and people you know is temporary. I am not trying to be negative here, just realistic. As much as we would all love it, we do not live in a fantasy world. Life is honest, it’s brutal and temporary. And even if you are one of the lucky ones who really does have a family member or friend who will stick with you through thick and thin, supporting you in some way, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, financially. At some point they will no longer be there for one reason or another.  Maybe it’s as simple as they get busy or just have a bad day and aren’t there when you need them. Or maybe they actually give up on you.

Support from others is awesome. I love it. I want it. I will take it whenever I can get it. And it is good to have a strong support system. We all want to feel wanted, understood, accepted for who we are, to be a part of and to have that support in our lives. But it can be devastatingly fatal to rely on it.

Rely on yourself. Love yourself. Love who you are. If you don’t, then change who you are. Be your own best friend. Be your own motivator. Be your own support.

Then when your outside support is no longer there, for any amount of time. You wont be left in a ditch, feeling like a failure, worthless, or unwanted. You will be right where you need to be. Independent, strong, self-supported. I am not saying this is always easy. But it is worth it. You are worth it. This is when you grow as a person. Not when things are easy, but when you don’t give in when things get hard. You will become stronger for having allowed yourself to be okay without having a hand to hold.

And before you know it your family member or friend will be there for you again. Or you will meet someone new who will give you the outside support you desire.

Support is temporary, be okay with it and be okay without it, because change is constant.

Share Your World – May 8, 2017

Cee’s Share Your World

When you’re alone at home, do you wear shoes, socks, slippers, or go barefoot?

Usually barefoot whenever possible. If it is cold I will put on some thick socks. If it is very cold I put on Uggs. I would never personally have bought the Uggs myself. They were my husbands and he never used them so I adopted them for myself and I love them. They keep my feet nice and warm when needed.

What was your favorite food when you were a child?

Pizza. Unfortunately I have found out I am now allergic to milk. So.. 😦 no cheese. Or I should say I am not supposed to eat cheese. But I love pizza! And luckily the cow’s milk allergy is a low allergy. So until I find a suitable replacement I will just have to cheat every now and then and eat the cheese anyways.

Are you a listener or talker?

Both. Though I am more naturally a listener. Especially If I don’t know someone well, then I am definitely more of a listener. But, once I get to know you, and depending on the the topic you may have a hard time getting me to stop talking.

Favorite thing to (pick one):  Photograph?  Write? Or Cook?

At the moment I would say writing. But mostly because I have finally started to focus on that and it is taking quite a bit of my time. I really do love to cook though. Of all three I have definitely done more cooking than the other two. Photos are just fun for me. I use my cell phone and take pics if anything that catches my eye.

Share Your World – May 1, 2017

Cee’s Share Your World

Would you rather live where it is always hot or always cold?

This is hard to answer because I easily get cold and like to be warm. But I hate being overheated. Lucky for me I currently live in California, where we really don’t get seasons.

If I had to choose though between really hot or cold, I would go with cold. I can always put on more layers, sit in front of a fire place or bon fire, sipping something warm.

Do you prefer long hair or short hair for yourself? 

Long hair. I have tried short a couple times and did not like it. How long? That varies, but I most definitely prefer it on the long side.

Though I have often wondered what it would be like to shave my head completely. However, I am not bold enough to give it a try, and I would probably hate it anyways.

What is your favorite month of the year?

I don’t have one favorite month because it is actually split between two months.  My favorite time of year is the the last two weeks of October and the first two weeks of November.

If I had to choose a favorite season it is Autumn but Spring is a very close second. Again this brings us back to question #1, I don’t prefer cold (winter) or hot (summer).

What is the easiest way for your to learn something new?  By reading, by seeing and doing, in a classroom?

I was just speaking with someone about this today. I learn well by trial and error.

Most of the time reading on my own and figuring out are best because I don’t have to comprehend quickly. Sometimes I get things as soon as I read about it. Sometimes, not so much if my perception is off. Self learning gives time for the wheels in my head to turn and let everything click. I have found that the associations I make with something new and unfamiliar are often not the same associations the the masses would make when reading or being taught the same information for the first time.

Perhaps if I had patient teachers that knew how to ask what my perception was and how to explain things differently, I would most likely learn faster by someone explaining and showing me. Thought that has not been my life experience. Unfortunately, most the teachers I have had, had a hard time teaching if someone is not perceiving something the same way they did.

Thinking of this actually makes me laugh and think of a couple examples:

When in grade school, given a sheet of paper with boxes drawn on it, and each box had a picture in it. The teacher wanted us to label what was in the box. I would write sparrow. I was told it was wrong because the correct answer was bird. But the instructions weren’t that literal, I am so analytical, and it technically truly was a picture of a sparrow.

Another example is that when doing math I would count with my fingers and would get in trouble for doing so. If they had allowed me to do so the answers would be correct. But they considered this cheating. Forcing me to do it in my head. I needed a visual at the time, so of course got the answers wrong. To this day I still work best with a visual example on certain things.

This was confusing to me as child. I later learned I am actually quite smart. Perhaps I didn’t have good teachers that understand how my brain worked. Or maybe I just learn better on my own. I truly do not know. What I have learned is every person is individual in how they learn. No one person is the same. Sometimes it just takes a little extra effort to figure how someones brain works in order to help them learn something. Expecting anyone to conform to someone else’s way of learning is ridiculous!